“I can’t do this! It hurts too much.” I remember looking up at my husband with pleading eyes and saying these words. And he looked down at me with compassion […]
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Going On a Bear Hunt in the Valley of Suffering
When I was in kindergarten, I used to love going on bear hunts. You know, the kind that take place in your imagination as you repeat after the teacher… We’re […]
faith / Grief
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My Story: The Pastor’s Widow
If I told you my story… I see my life in three chapters. Chapter one was my life before Jeremy. Chapter two was my life with Jeremy. Chapter three is […]
devotional / faith / Grief
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Joy and Sadness: Inside Out Living
A couple of years ago, we saw a cute, animated movie about the happenings inside a 12-yr-old girl’s mind. Each quirky character in “Inside Out” represents an emotion the preteen […]
devotional / faith / Grief
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Tune My Heart to Sing Thy Grace
The only instrument we tune in our home is the guitar, and it needs to be tuned often. But suppose we tune it by ear or don’t tune it at […]
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When God Says No
Sometimes, God says, “no.” That’s when I find out how much of a spiritual toddler I am. I was talking to my sister’s widower yesterday. We were discussing our future […]
Child Loss / faith / Grief
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Childless on Mother’s Day
Friend, if you are dreading Mother’s Day, I see you. Twenty-two years ago, we said our final goodbye in this life to our only child. My first Mother’s Day was […]
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PAUSE
I wear a pause button around my neck. A bit unconventional, I know, but that’s me. Just recently, people have started asking me about it. I purchased this necklace shortly […]
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But If Not…
Each year, around November, Jeremy and I would sit down and make a cohesive plan for the next year. Church theme, student ministry theme, topics, lesson plans, activities, etc. In […]
Easter / faith / poetry
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It Was for Me
It was for me, Jesus left Heaven’s glory For me, He stepped down from His throne Wrote Himself into redemption’s story From Lord of lords, to an embryo Creator of […]
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He Loves Me. He Loves Me Not.
I think this may be what PTSD feels like. The nightmares and night sweats, heart palpitations and nausea, reliving the trauma and uncontrolled sobbing, irrational fears and fight or flight […]