Christmas / Devotional / devotional / faith / Grief / Grief Support / Holidays / Love / Widowhood

So Loved

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I know about love. I have loved, and been beautifully loved by, a good man. But, as much as he loved me, I’m absolutely certain Jeremy wouldn’t come back to […]

Advent / Christmas / devotional / Holidays

High and Holy Calling: Identifying the Lamb of God

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Like the rest of their people, they’d been waiting their whole lives for a deliverer to come—to rescue them from oppression, poverty and injustice. On this night, like every night, […]

Christmas / devotional / faith / Grief / Grief Support / Holidays / hope / Waiting

Hope Has Come: Advent

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I can think of nothing that threatens my hope more than the silence of God—endless waiting with not so much as a whisper from the One on whom my expectation […]

Child Loss / devotional / faith / Grief / Grief Support / Trauma / Widowhood

Healing from the Inside Out

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Years ago, following our baby girl’s open heart surgery, doctors were unable to close her sternum, so they sewed a patch over her incision, and sent her to the PICU. […]

Child Loss / devotional / faith / Grief / Grief Support / Resurrection / seasons / Trauma / Widowhood

Death Gives Way to Life

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It was a sunny October afternoon when death came to visit. Once my favorite season—filled with family birthdays at apple orchards, hot pumpkin spice lattes on crisp, frosty mornings and […]

devotional / Grief / Post-Traumatic Growth / Prolonged Grief Disorder / Widowhood

Four Years Faithful

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This blog is four years old today—born out of one of the darkest valleys of my life. If these birth-pangs were measurable, they’d certainly be a 10 on the Richter […]

cancer / Child Loss / devotional / faith / Grief / Grief Support / Widowhood / Womanhood

Irreparably Broken

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Do you feel irreparably broken? A few minutes of watching the news or scrolling social media reminds me that I don’t hold a monopoly on brokenness. There is pain, devastation […]

devotional / faith / Grief / Grief Support / Surrender / Waiting / Widowhood

When Will You Surrender?

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Two years ago, I’m sitting on the third row, just before worship on a Sunday morning—pretty discouraged and praying for clarity—when God hits me between the eyes with this question: […]

cancer / Child Loss / devotional / faith / Grief / Grief Support / Trauma / Widowhood

When Grief Rocks Your Faith

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Profound grief has a way of bringing us face to face with what we actually believe about God. Often, we are surprised by our own doubt. We wrestle with the […]

devotional / Grief Support / Post-Traumatic Growth / Widowhood

Contentment, Even Now?

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I often preach to myself that I need to be fully present in each season. It’s so tempting to always be looking forward to the next things: Before we know […]

cancer / Child Loss / devotional / faith / Grief / Widowhood

God’s Heartbeat

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Our daughter was born with three heart defects. I would often lay with my ear pressed against her, so I could listen to her heart beat. It brought peace to […]

devotional / Easter / faith / Grief / hope / Resurrection

Sunday Isn’t Coming

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It’s Saturday. The most hopeless day in history. Hope personified is laying in a tomb, lifeless. The disciples are hiding, mourning the death of their friend and teacher, grieving over […]