Exactly one year and one day from the death of my beloved husband, I had the first of three surgeries to remove cancer from my body. More specifically, a double […]
cancer / Child Loss / faith / Grief / Widowhood
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2 years—cancer free!
When I found out I had cancer only nine months after my husband died, I didn’t think I even wanted to survive it. I was numb. I was exhausted. I […]
faith / Grief / seasons / Widowhood
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Death Gives Way to Life
Autumn can be a mixed bag for the griever. It’s as if fall now has a death-shadow cast over it, with every falling leaf a reminder that life must end […]
Grief / poetry / Widowhood
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Taking Pictures of Pictures
Taking pictures of pictures, so precious and few,Snapshots of moments we can never re-do;So many, I’d freeze-frame if I had the chance,Saving each second that I spent with you. And […]
faith / Grief / Parenting / Widowhood
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Do You Look like Your Father?
Slowly but surely, we begin to resemble those closest to us. I see it in my children the most. (Even the adopted ones.) Not only do they look like their […]
faith / Grief / Widowhood
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Manna & Mercy Every Morning
Three years ago, today, I stood in a hospital corridor, praying over this man. His nurse had called and said he was crashing and would likely be gone before I […]
faith / Grief / hope / Trauma
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Not Too Broken for Jesus
My heart is so heavy over the recent devastation in our country from Helene. I’ve seen video after video, picture after picture, story after story of loss of life, livelihood […]
cancer / child loss / faith / Grief / Widowhood
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Visiting Grief
Today was just one of those days. I love rollercoasters, but not the emotional kind. I get frustrated with myself when I have days like this. I think I’m doing […]
child loss / faith / Grief / Widowhood
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Walk Worthy, Because He is Worthy
Facing 2022 was just hard. My first year without him in it. A milestone that felt more like a millstone — tied about my neck and dragging me under, as […]
faith / Grief / Widowhood
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Not Strong, And That’s Okay
Can we just be real?I’m not as strong as some people think I am.There. I said it. I could lie to you and say that I wasn’t sobbing in my […]
child loss / faith / Grief / Trauma / Widowhood
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When Grief Collides with Faith
Profound grief has a way of bringing us face to face with what we actually believe about God. Often, we are surprised by our doubt. We wrestle with the juxtaposition […]