When we realized Jeremy wasn’t going to make it, I looked at my dad and asked, “Why does this keep happening to me?” When bad things happen, often our first […]
child loss / faith / Grief / Prolonged Grief Disorder / Trauma / Widowhood
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Complicated Grief: When You Get Stuck
Grief is inevitable. No one escapes it. If you love anything or anyone, you will eventually grieve. Remember when your baby had separation anxiety? She was grieving what she perceived […]
faith / Grief / seasons / Thanksgiving / Widowhood
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Grief and Gratitude
Thanksgiving has always been a month-long holiday in the Smith home. When our boys were little, our family began an exercise in thanks-living, which became a yearly tradition for us. […]
child loss / Grief / Trauma / Widowhood
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The Binder of My Wounds
Jeremy married a very broken girl almost 27 years ago. In him, God graced me with exactly what I needed in that particular season. He was patient and steady and […]
cancer / Child Loss / devotional / faith / Grief / Parenting / Trauma / Widowhood
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When God Calls You Out
The boat was not Peter’s safe place; Jesus was.
cancer / Child Loss / faith / Grief / Widowhood
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2 years—cancer free!
When I found out I had cancer only nine months after my husband died, I didn’t think I even wanted to survive it. I was numb. I was exhausted. I […]
faith / Grief / seasons / Widowhood
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Death Gives Way to Life
Autumn can be a mixed bag for the griever. It’s as if fall now has a death-shadow cast over it, with every falling leaf a reminder that life must end […]
Grief / poetry / Widowhood
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Taking Pictures of Pictures
Taking pictures of pictures, so precious and few,Snapshots of moments we can never re-do;So many, I’d freeze-frame if I had the chance,Saving each second that I spent with you. And […]
faith / Grief / Parenting / Widowhood
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Do You Look like Your Father?
Slowly but surely, we begin to resemble those closest to us. I see it in my children the most. (Even the adopted ones.) Not only do they look like their […]
faith / Grief / Widowhood
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Manna & Mercy Every Morning
Three years ago, today, I stood in a hospital corridor, praying over this man. His nurse had called and said he was crashing and would likely be gone before I […]
cancer / child loss / faith / Grief / Widowhood
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Visiting Grief
Today was just one of those days. I love rollercoasters, but not the emotional kind. I get frustrated with myself when I have days like this. I think I’m doing […]
