I’m still wearing my pause necklace. She’s a little rough with wear. In fact, I stopped wearing her for a minute because she’s all pitted and the “gold” is rubbed […]
Grief
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Thankful for Grief
I am thankful for grief. Hear me out… Grief is love. 🥀 Not, “I once loved,” but rather, “I love still.” I am privileged to have had a love that […]
faith / Grief / Parenting / Widowhood
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Love Bends Down
She was exhausted. She was out of her comfort zone. She’d had enough. So, he just sat with her. For as long as it took.
Because love bends down.
Like a good earthly father sits by his struggling child—tenderly, lovingly, patiently—so our good heavenly Father stoops down to us in our need. For as long as it takes.
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child loss / faith / Grief / Trauma / Widowhood
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When You Want to Ask Why
When we realized Jeremy wasn’t going to make it, I looked at my dad and asked, “Why does this keep happening to me?” When bad things happen, often our first […]
faith / Grief / seasons / Thanksgiving / Widowhood
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Grief and Gratitude
Thanksgiving has always been a month-long holiday in the Smith home. When our boys were little, our family began an exercise in thanks-living, which became a yearly tradition for us. […]
child loss / Grief / Trauma / Widowhood
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The Binder of My Wounds
Jeremy married a very broken girl almost 27 years ago. In him, God graced me with exactly what I needed in that particular season. He was patient and steady and […]
cancer / Child Loss / devotional / faith / Grief / Parenting / Trauma / Widowhood
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When God Calls You Out
The boat was not Peter’s safe place; Jesus was.
cancer / faith / Grief / Trauma
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And Then Came Cancer
Exactly one year and one day from the death of my beloved husband, I had the first of three surgeries to remove cancer from my body. More specifically, a double […]
cancer / Child Loss / faith / Grief / Widowhood
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2 years—cancer free!
When I found out I had cancer only nine months after my husband died, I didn’t think I even wanted to survive it. I was numb. I was exhausted. I […]
faith / Grief / seasons / Widowhood
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Death Gives Way to Life
Autumn can be a mixed bag for the griever. It’s as if fall now has a death-shadow cast over it, with every falling leaf a reminder that life must end […]
faith / Grief / Parenting / Widowhood
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Do You Look like Your Father?
Slowly but surely, we begin to resemble those closest to us. I see it in my children the most. (Even the adopted ones.) Not only do they look like their […]
faith / Grief / Widowhood
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Manna & Mercy Every Morning
Three years ago, today, I stood in a hospital corridor, praying over this man. His nurse had called and said he was crashing and would likely be gone before I […]