Cancer took me by surpriseChrist knew all of my days before there was one of them Cancer deforms my bodyChrist formed my inward parts and knitted me together in my […]
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A Griever’s 23rd Psalm
I walked through the valley of the shadow of deathBut You were with meYou never left me (Ps 23) Sobs wracked my body ’til there were no tears leftYou wrote […]
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I Would See Jesus: A Life That Points to Christ
He never wanted it to be about him. Everything he did was about others: his family, his friends, his church, complete strangers, and most of all, his God. I remember […]
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The Forgotten Widow
My newfound marital status has opened my eyes to an overlooked demographic in the church. I’m talking about the widow. Oh, how this must break the heart of the Father! […]
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The Day the Darkness Started Closing In: Finding the Light
Like many children, I was afraid of the dark. I don’t know what it is about the unknown that makes it so terrifying, but darkness made my imagination run wild. […]
child loss / Grief / Parenting / Trauma / Widowhood
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To The One Doing Hard Things
Hey, you. The one who cried herself to sleep last nightThe one battling to get out of bed todayThe one who keeps reliving the traumaThe one who is riddled with […]
Grief / poetry / Widowhood
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Remind Me That I’m Not Forgotten
TodayI feelUseless.Hopeless.Unwanted.In the way. Not self pityJust the awarenessThat life as we know itKeeps going on. Some of usAre left behind for a while.Like missing the last busOut to happiness. […]
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Softer…Or Stronger
I wish I were stronger. Friedrich Nietzsche said, “That which does not kill you makes you stronger.” In many ways, that’s true. Studies have actually shown that many people who […]
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The Purpose of Fire: That I May Come Forth as Gold
My girls and I love a bonfire. There’s just something about that smokey smell that lingers in your hair, the mix of autumn chill with the fire’s warmth and the […]
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It’s Not About Cancer
She looked at me with tears streaming down my face and said, “It’s not about you.” At the moment, it felt harsh, but it was truth. That’s the reason I […]
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You’re My Promised Land
Our congregation enjoyed their first service in our brand new building this past Sunday. I didn’t go. The truth is, I have been both anticipating and dreading this day for […]
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When I Am Afraid
Last night, we did some sunset tubing on the lake. My youngest had been looking forward to it all day, but when the time came for her to get on […]