faith / Grief

But If Not…

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Each year, around November, Jeremy and I would sit down and make a cohesive plan for the next year. Church theme, student ministry theme, topics, lesson plans, activities, etc. In […]

faith / Grief

Words

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It will come as no surprise to you that I talk a lot. I’m what is called an external, or verbal, processor. That means I have to process my thoughts, […]

Easter / faith / poetry

It Was for Me

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It was for me, Jesus left Heaven’s glory For me, He stepped down from His throne Wrote Himself into redemption’s story From Lord of lords, to an embryo Creator of […]

faith / Grief

He Loves Me. He Loves Me Not.

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I think this may be what PTSD feels like. The nightmares and night sweats, heart palpitations and nausea, reliving the trauma and uncontrolled sobbing, irrational fears and fight or flight […]

faith / Grief

Rejection

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Rejection stings. I applied for a job last week. I was super excited to have found something I could see myself enjoying. Having to leave ministry because I’m no longer […]

cancer / faith

The God Who Stays

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One thing that seems universal to sufferers is the need for community. How many of us have craved, hoped, even prayed for someone to come alongside and sit with us […]

devotional / faith / Grief

Cue the Anger

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Oh boy. I was really hoping to skip this part of the grief process. I mean, everyone warned me -especially other widows – but I was praying I would be […]

Grief

Six Months

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Six months. Six months since I held his hand and stroked his hair and kissed his face. Six months since I lay across his chest, longing to hear his heart […]

Grief / Marriage

Dancing in the Minefields

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Today would have been our 25th anniversary. My first without him. I’ve been dreading this day. I was afraid I would spend the whole day weeping over what I’ve lost; […]

faith / Grief

Sunday’s Coming

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Saturday was silent. Surely, it was through…. I often think about that Saturday between the crucifixion and the resurrection, when Jesus was in the tomb. I believe that must’ve been […]

devotional / faith / Grief

The Seasons of Grief

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The daffodils popped up weeks ago, promising the end of an unbearably long winter. But it seems to me, Spring is a bit bipolar. She gifts us with warmth and […]

faith / Grief

I’ll Be Okay

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Yesterday was just hard. Some days are like that. When you’re a mom, the car seems to be a good place to go to be alone. Last night, you could’ve […]