Friend, if you are dreading Mother’s Day, I see you. Twenty-two years ago, we said our final goodbye in this life to our only child. My first Mother’s Day was […]
PAUSE
I wear a pause button around my neck. A bit unconventional, I know, but that’s me. Just recently, people have started asking me about it. I purchased this necklace shortly […]
He Loves Me. He Loves Me Not.
I think this may be what PTSD feels like. The nightmares and night sweats, heart palpitations and nausea, reliving the trauma and uncontrolled sobbing, irrational fears and fight or flight […]
Letting Go
I am determined to not let any of my pain get wasted. Which means, whenever I am in a trial, I do a lot of soul searching and scripture searching. […]
Cue the Anger
Oh boy. I was really hoping to skip this part of the grief process. I mean, everyone warned me -especially other widows – but I was praying I would be […]
Six Months
Six months. Six months since I held his hand and stroked his hair and kissed his face. Six months since I lay across his chest, longing to hear his heart […]
Dancing in the Minefields
Today would have been our 25th anniversary. My first without him. I’ve been dreading this day. I was afraid I would spend the whole day weeping over what I’ve lost; […]
Sunday’s Coming
Saturday was silent. Surely, it was through…. I often think about that Saturday between the crucifixion and the resurrection, when Jesus was in the tomb. I believe that must’ve been […]
The Seasons of Grief
The daffodils popped up weeks ago, promising the end of an unbearably long winter. But it seems to me, Spring is a bit bipolar. She gifts us with warmth and […]
I’ll Be Okay
Yesterday was just hard. Some days are like that. When you’re a mom, the car seems to be a good place to go to be alone. Last night, you could’ve […]
You Are Who He Says You Are
This shirt.I don’t know who gave it to me. It just showed up on my desk one Wednesday night, before prayer meeting. The note was simply signed, “a friend.” Loss […]