Sometimes, God says, “no.” That’s when I find out how much of a spiritual toddler I am. I was talking to my sister’s widower yesterday. We were discussing our future […]
Child Loss / faith / Grief
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Childless on Mother’s Day
Friend, if you are dreading Mother’s Day, I see you. Twenty-two years ago, we said our final goodbye in this life to our only child. My first Mother’s Day was […]
devotional / faith / Grief
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PAUSE
I wear a pause button around my neck. A bit unconventional, I know, but that’s me. Just recently, people have started asking me about it. I purchased this necklace shortly […]
faith / Grief
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He Loves Me. He Loves Me Not.
I think this may be what PTSD feels like. The nightmares and night sweats, heart palpitations and nausea, reliving the trauma and uncontrolled sobbing, irrational fears and fight or flight […]
child loss / Parenting
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Letting Go
I am determined to not let any of my pain get wasted. Which means, whenever I am in a trial, I do a lot of soul searching and scripture searching. […]
devotional / faith / Grief
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Cue the Anger
Oh boy. I was really hoping to skip this part of the grief process. I mean, everyone warned me -especially other widows – but I was praying I would be […]
Grief
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Six Months
Six months. Six months since I held his hand and stroked his hair and kissed his face. Six months since I lay across his chest, longing to hear his heart […]
Grief / Marriage
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Dancing in the Minefields
Today would have been our 25th anniversary. My first without him. I’ve been dreading this day. I was afraid I would spend the whole day weeping over what I’ve lost; […]
faith / Grief
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Sunday’s Coming
Saturday was silent. Surely, it was through…. I often think about that Saturday between the crucifixion and the resurrection, when Jesus was in the tomb. I believe that must’ve been […]
devotional / faith / Grief
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The Seasons of Grief
The daffodils popped up weeks ago, promising the end of an unbearably long winter. But it seems to me, Spring is a bit bipolar. She gifts us with warmth and […]
faith / Grief
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I’ll Be Okay
Yesterday was just hard. Some days are like that. When you’re a mom, the car seems to be a good place to go to be alone. Last night, you could’ve […]