When we realized Jeremy wasn’t going to make it, I looked at my dad and asked, “Why does this keep happening to me?” When bad things happen, often our first […]
cancer / Child Loss / devotional / faith / Grief / Parenting / Trauma / Widowhood
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When God Calls You Out
The boat was not Peter’s safe place; Jesus was.
faith / Grief / Widowhood
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Manna & Mercy Every Morning
Three years ago, today, I stood in a hospital corridor, praying over this man. His nurse had called and said he was crashing and would likely be gone before I […]
child loss / faith / Grief / Widowhood
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Walk Worthy, Because He is Worthy
Facing 2022 was just hard. My first year without him in it. A milestone that felt more like a millstone — tied about my neck and dragging me under, as […]
faith / Grief / Widowhood
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Not Strong, And That’s Okay
Can we just be real?I’m not as strong as some people think I am.There. I said it. I could lie to you and say that I wasn’t sobbing in my […]
faith / Grief / Widowhood
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The Blessing of Suffering
Long before Kari Jobe and Cody Carnes released their song called “The Blessing,” Jeremy used to end our Sunday morning services with the benediction from Numbers 6. It’s a lovely […]
cancer / Child Loss / faith / Grief / Widowhood
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God Can, But What If He Doesn’t?
What if …I don’t get a happy ending?…This pain doesn’t go away?…He answers my prayers with “No?”…Life never looks like I hoped?…I lose again? I know God can—but what. if. […]
child loss / devotional / faith / Grief / poetry / poetry / Trauma / Widowhood
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I’ll Give Thanks Anyway
Even when my heart is brokenAnd last goodbyes remain unspoken{I’ll give THANKS anyway.} Even when my dreams are shatteredAnd it’s not my will that mattered{I’ll give THANKS anyway.} Even when […]
faith / Grief / Widowhood
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The Forgotten Widow
My newfound marital status has opened my eyes to an overlooked demographic in the church. I’m talking about the widow. Oh, how this must break the heart of the Father! […]
faith / Grief / Widowhood
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The Day the Darkness Started Closing In: Finding the Light
Like many children, I was afraid of the dark. I don’t know what it is about the unknown that makes it so terrifying, but darkness made my imagination run wild. […]
child loss / Grief / Parenting / Trauma / Widowhood
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To The One Doing Hard Things
Hey, you. The one who cried herself to sleep last nightThe one battling to get out of bed todayThe one who keeps reliving the traumaThe one who is riddled with […]