faith / Grief / Parenting / Widowhood

Love Bends Down

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She was exhausted. She was out of her comfort zone. She’d had enough. So, he just sat with her. For as long as it took.

Because love bends down.

Like a good earthly father sits by his struggling child—tenderly, lovingly, patiently—so our good heavenly Father stoops down to us in our need. For as long as it takes.

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child loss / faith / Grief / Trauma / Widowhood

When You Want to Ask Why

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When we realized Jeremy wasn’t going to make it, I looked at my dad and asked, “Why does this keep happening to me?” When bad things happen, often our first […]

child loss / faith / Grief / Prolonged Grief Disorder / Trauma / Widowhood

Complicated Grief: When You Get Stuck

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Grief is inevitable. No one escapes it. If you love anything or anyone, you will eventually grieve. Remember when your baby had separation anxiety? She was grieving what she perceived […]

faith / Grief / seasons / Thanksgiving / Widowhood

Grief and Gratitude

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Thanksgiving has always been a month-long holiday in the Smith home. When our boys were little, our family began an exercise in thanks-living, which became a yearly tradition for us. […]

child loss / Grief / Trauma / Widowhood

The Binder of My Wounds

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Jeremy married a very broken girl almost 27 years ago. In him, God graced me with exactly what I needed in that particular season. He was patient and steady and […]

cancer / Child Loss / devotional / faith / Grief / Parenting / Trauma / Widowhood

When God Calls You Out

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The boat was not Peter’s safe place; Jesus was.

cancer / faith / Grief / Trauma

And Then Came Cancer

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Exactly one year and one day from the death of my beloved husband, I had the first of three surgeries to remove cancer from my body. More specifically, a double […]

cancer / Child Loss / faith / Grief / Widowhood

2 years—cancer free!

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When I found out I had cancer only nine months after my husband died, I didn’t think I even wanted to survive it. I was numb. I was exhausted. I […]

faith / Grief / seasons / Widowhood

Death Gives Way to Life

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Autumn can be a mixed bag for the griever. It’s as if fall now has a death-shadow cast over it, with every falling leaf a reminder that life must end […]

Grief / poetry / Widowhood

Taking Pictures of Pictures

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Taking pictures of pictures, so precious and few,Snapshots of moments we can never re-do;So many, I’d freeze-frame if I had the chance,Saving each second that I spent with you. And […]

faith / Grief / Parenting / Widowhood

Do You Look like Your Father?

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Slowly but surely, we begin to resemble those closest to us. I see it in my children the most. (Even the adopted ones.) Not only do they look like their […]

faith / Grief / Widowhood

Manna & Mercy Every Morning

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Three years ago, today, I stood in a hospital corridor, praying over this man. His nurse had called and said he was crashing and would likely be gone before I […]