cancer / child loss / faith / Grief / poetry / Widowhood

A Griever’s 23rd Psalm

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I walked through the valley of the shadow of deathBut You were with meYou never left me (Ps 23) Sobs wracked my body ’til there were no tears leftYou wrote […]

devotional / faith / Grief / Widowhood

I Would See Jesus: A Life That Points to Christ

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He never wanted it to be about him. Everything he did was about others: his family, his friends, his church, complete strangers, and most of all, his God. I remember […]

faith / Grief / Widowhood

The Forgotten Widow

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My newfound marital status has opened my eyes to an overlooked demographic in the church. I’m talking about the widow. Oh, how this must break the heart of the Father! […]

faith / Grief / Marriage / Widowhood

Still a Princess Bride: God Celebrates You

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I never thought much of birthdays until Jeremy came along. Suddenly, my birth was a Christmas-esque holiday with month-long gift giving and celebration. He would’ve made you celebrate it too, […]

faith / Grief / Widowhood

The Day the Darkness Started Closing In: Finding the Light

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Like many children, I was afraid of the dark. I don’t know what it is about the unknown that makes it so terrifying, but darkness made my imagination run wild. […]

child loss / Grief / Parenting / Trauma / Widowhood

To The One Doing Hard Things

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Hey, you. The one who cried herself to sleep last nightThe one battling to get out of bed todayThe one who keeps reliving the traumaThe one who is riddled with […]

Grief / poetry / Widowhood

Remind Me That I’m Not Forgotten

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TodayI feelUseless.Hopeless.Unwanted.In the way. Not self pityJust the awarenessThat life as we know itKeeps going on. Some of usAre left behind for a while.Like missing the last busOut to happiness. […]

cancer / devotional / faith / Grief / Widowhood

Softer…Or Stronger

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I wish I were stronger. Friedrich Nietzsche said, “That which does not kill you makes you stronger.” In many ways, that’s true. Studies have actually shown that many people who […]

cancer / devotional / faith / Grief / Trauma / Widowhood

The Purpose of Fire: That I May Come Forth as Gold

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My girls and I love a bonfire. There’s just something about that smokey smell that lingers in your hair, the mix of autumn chill with the fire’s warmth and the […]

cancer / faith / Grief / Widowhood

It’s Not About Cancer

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She looked at me with tears streaming down my face and said, “It’s not about you.” At the moment, it felt harsh, but it was truth. That’s the reason I […]

faith / Grief / Widowhood

You’re My Promised Land

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Our congregation enjoyed their first service in our brand new building this past Sunday. I didn’t go. The truth is, I have been both anticipating and dreading this day for […]

devotional / faith / Grief

When I Am Afraid

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Last night, we did some sunset tubing on the lake. My youngest had been looking forward to it all day, but when the time came for her to get on […]