faith / Grief / Widowhood

The Blessing of Suffering

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Long before Kari Jobe and Cody Carnes released their song called “The Blessing,” Jeremy used to end our Sunday morning services with the benediction from Numbers 6. It’s a lovely […]

Grief / Love / Marriage / poetry

If Sunrise Should Come Without Me

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I’ll Be There If sunrise should ever come without meAnd there’s no “good morning” to be saidIf your saddened heart should doubt meI want these thoughts to fill your head: […]

cancer / faith / Grief / Parenting / Trauma / Widowhood

Daddy’s Girl

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Our youngest was a daddy’s girl. Of the five children, she was the one who preferred Jeremy, even over me. So naturally, whenever she needed comfort, she ran to her […]

cancer / Child Loss / faith / Grief / Widowhood

God Can, But What If He Doesn’t?

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What if …I don’t get a happy ending?…This pain doesn’t go away?…He answers my prayers with “No?”…Life never looks like I hoped?…I lose again? I know God can—but what. if. […]

child loss / devotional / faith / Grief / poetry / poetry / Trauma / Widowhood

I’ll Give Thanks Anyway

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Even when my heart is brokenAnd last goodbyes remain unspoken{I’ll give THANKS anyway.} Even when my dreams are shatteredAnd it’s not my will that mattered{I’ll give THANKS anyway.} Even when […]

child loss / devotional / faith / Grief / hope / seasons / Sermon / Widowhood

Autumn: Death Gives Way To Life

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Autumn has always been my favorite. There are so many things about it that I love: rich colors, changing leaves, sunny days with cool evenings, crisp air, crunching leaves, dancing […]

cancer / child loss / faith / Grief / poetry / Widowhood

A Griever’s 23rd Psalm

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I walked through the valley of the shadow of deathBut You were with meYou never left me (Ps 23) Sobs wracked my body ’til there were no tears leftYou wrote […]

devotional / faith / Grief / Widowhood

I Would See Jesus: A Life That Points to Christ

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He never wanted it to be about him. Everything he did was about others: his family, his friends, his church, complete strangers, and most of all, his God. I remember […]

faith / Grief / Widowhood

The Forgotten Widow

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My newfound marital status has opened my eyes to an overlooked demographic in the church. I’m talking about the widow. Oh, how this must break the heart of the Father! […]

faith / Grief / Marriage / Widowhood

Still a Princess Bride: God Celebrates You

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I never thought much of birthdays until Jeremy came along. Suddenly, my birth was a Christmas-esque holiday with month-long gift giving and celebration. He would’ve made you celebrate it too, […]

faith / Grief / Widowhood

The Day the Darkness Started Closing In: Finding the Light

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Like many children, I was afraid of the dark. I don’t know what it is about the unknown that makes it so terrifying, but darkness made my imagination run wild. […]

child loss / Grief / Parenting / Trauma / Widowhood

To The One Doing Hard Things

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Hey, you. The one who cried herself to sleep last nightThe one battling to get out of bed todayThe one who keeps reliving the traumaThe one who is riddled with […]