The only instrument we tune in our home is the guitar, and it needs to be tuned often. But suppose we tune it by ear or don’t tune it at […]
devotional / faith / Grief
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When God Says No
Sometimes, God says, “no.” That’s when I find out how much of a spiritual toddler I am. I was talking to my sister’s widower yesterday. We were discussing our future […]
Child Loss / faith / Grief
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Childless on Mother’s Day
Friend, if you are dreading Mother’s Day, I see you. Twenty-two years ago, we said our final goodbye in this life to our only child. My first Mother’s Day was […]
devotional / faith / Grief
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PAUSE
I wear a pause button around my neck. A bit unconventional, I know, but that’s me. Just recently, people have started asking me about it. I purchased this necklace shortly […]
faith / Grief
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But If Not…
Each year, around November, Jeremy and I would sit down and make a cohesive plan for the next year. Church theme, student ministry theme, topics, lesson plans, activities, etc. In […]
faith / Grief
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He Loves Me. He Loves Me Not.
I think this may be what PTSD feels like. The nightmares and night sweats, heart palpitations and nausea, reliving the trauma and uncontrolled sobbing, irrational fears and fight or flight […]
child loss / Parenting
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Letting Go
I am determined to not let any of my pain get wasted. Which means, whenever I am in a trial, I do a lot of soul searching and scripture searching. […]
cancer / faith
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The God Who Stays
One thing that seems universal to sufferers is the need for community. How many of us have craved, hoped, even prayed for someone to come alongside and sit with us […]
Grief
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Six Months
Six months. Six months since I held his hand and stroked his hair and kissed his face. Six months since I lay across his chest, longing to hear his heart […]
Grief / Marriage
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Dancing in the Minefields
Today would have been our 25th anniversary. My first without him. I’ve been dreading this day. I was afraid I would spend the whole day weeping over what I’ve lost; […]