It’s been exactly one month since you were called away.
In some moments, it feels like you’ve been gone for a lifetime. In others, I open my eyes and expect to see you still here, beside me.
I can almost hear your voice. I see your face in the faces of our girls. I walk into your office – still the way you left it – and wonder why I’m not greeted by your smile. Those are the hard moments. Those are the moments when I’m forced to remember, all over again.
There are sweet moments, too. Like when an unexpected memory brings a smile to my lips. Or I find some sentimental thing that you’ve saved for all these years. Or the discovery that you had a secret stash of Taylor Swift CDs. I often hear myself saying, “Oh, Jeremy” with a laugh in my voice.
We miss you. Oh, how we miss you! But we are making strides every day to do what you taught us. To press on. To seek the Lord. To continue His work. To leave a legacy of faithfulness. To never lose our sense of humor. To trust the heart of the Father.
And so, we face another day without you, knowing that you wouldn’t come back if you could. And we will continue to face each day in the strength of the One whom you so faithfully followed until He renews our strength and we can fly again.
TPW November 12, 2021
