faith / Grief / hope / Post-Traumatic Growth / Waiting / Widowhood

Undone to Become: Butterflies and Sanctification

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One of the most fascinating occurrences in all of God’s creation happens inside a tiny bean-shaped pod. A fuzzy “worm” that has, thus far, spent her life crawling slowly on […]

Child Loss / Grief / Widowhood

No Regrets

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Time is a funny resource. We know we have a limited supply, yet we never know when our supply is going to run out. Five years ago, I threw Jeremy […]

devotional / Grief / Post-Traumatic Growth / Trauma / Widowhood

Deep Roots and Divine Resilience

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You probably overlooked her at first glance. She’s not not much to look at. Surrounded by her thriving, productive counterparts, she seems to be a lost cause. You see, the […]

Father’s Day / Grief

Making Space for the Fatherless and Childless on Father’s Day

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I don’t remember his first Father’s Day without her. I suppose I was too consumed by my own grief to notice. I’m certain he got up and went to church, […]

faith / Grief / Grief Support / Widowhood

Even If He Doesn’t

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In 2021, my theme for our Student Ministry was “That’s Messed Up.” We spent the year learning about the deeply flawed people in the Bible and the God who redeemed […]

Grief

Just After the Rest: Finding Value in the Silent Measures of Life

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A lifetime ago, I was a musician. In music, we call a pause a “rest.” We like that word, don’t we? Rest sounds like such a lovely thing—until you’re forced […]

cancer / Child Loss / devotional / faith / Grief / Widowhood

God’s Heartbeat

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Our daughter was born with three heart defects. I would often lay with my ear pressed against her, so I could listen to her heart beat. It brought peace to […]

faith / Grief / poetry / Poetry / Widowhood

HOW LONG?

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How Long, LORD? I feel like You’ve been silent even though I know You’re here.I know You’ve never left me, but I cannot feel You near.I don’t know why I’m […]

Child Loss / devotional / faith / Grief / hope / Trauma / Widowhood

Graves and Gardens

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When Karissa died, Jeremy and I were newlyweds, living on a single Christian School teacher’s salary. Meaning, we didn’t have two nickels to rub together. Thankfully, my parents were gracious […]

But God / child loss / faith / Grief / Parenting / Widowhood

Birth, Death and Adoption

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Exactly 8 days before our little girl went to Heaven, on February 28th, our little boy was born. We just didn’t know it yet.  God knew. He knew I’d […]

Anorexia / But God / child loss / faith / Grief / Parenting / Resources / Solo Parenting / Trauma / Widowhood / Womanhood

Anorexia vs Faith

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Not many years before we lost Jeremy, we almost lost our 14-year-old daughter. We helplessly watched as she slowly and painfully tried to take her own life. The diagnosis was […]

faith / Grief / Love / Trauma / Widowhood

I’ll Be Your Valentine

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0ur first official date was on this day, 29 years ago. I surely do love to tell this story! Jeremy and I attended a Valentine’s Banquet together at our Bible […]